430pm yesterday, marked the end of my identity as a freshman in my university. I only had two final papers for the semester, so it was not a tough fight, though a long and lifeless wait almost dried me up like a prune. (mirth)
Sem 2 had definitely been a busy period for me, as expected. Notwithstanding the fact that there were much more downturns along the course, I am glad for all that I’ve been through, because it only made me more tenacious. I am extremely grateful for all the people around me, who cared for me and helped me get through the hair-pulling, chest-thumping, & tears-pouring period.
I guess what made this semester extra demanding, was the fact that I had to balance both JCRC as well as weekly quizzes, and assignments which all counts toward my final grade. (Which explains why I only have 2 final papers!) I have my fingers crossed on that, because I know that if I had more time, I would probably have done better. (but that’s what we all say, heh.)
Cheer competition took place on 5th Feb, and it’s the first major event for me in semester 2. You have no idea how relieved I was when it was all over, because it was taking up so much time! Still, I suffered from a little bit of withdrawal symptoms, but I got over it as soon has I realised all the work I had in front of me. We did well, as compared to the previous few years, and I’m happy to be part of the team. Everybody was very patient and accommodating, and I loved how it involves so much team spirit. I’m happy that I went ahead with my decision to join (standing by the YOLO spirit, hahaha) and now I can tell my future kids about this wonderful experience. :) I am really happy to have known the few friends that I’ve made along the journey and I must say that they are pretty different from the usual friends that I make…perhaps less emotional, more resilient, ambitious… ( Or maybe i’m just weird).
I turned twenty this year, in February. Birthdays never fail to remind me about how much I am loved by my friends and family. This year, J, A, and N surprised me at my hall and I loved it. They decorated the room with pink fairies hanging down the ceiling, pink heart-shaped balloons, my name on the wall (which A printed letter by letter and cut them out, hahaha), got me a princess sash, super bimbotic but cute & PINK p.osh brownie, party hats… … & a medium-sized craftholic plushie. My hall friends also surprised me with cakes (super yummy cai dao kueh, & strawberry cake) at midnight which made me really, really, happy. Too bad there were just too many of them, it’s quite difficult to make that personal connection and express your heartfelt gratitude to each one of them. I just hope that they know in their hearts. haha.
Cultural Night was a huge flop on the organising part (to me), but also a life-changing experience. It was like one of those wake-up calls for me and I found how stupid I had become that I almost lost myself. I got to work with many different types of people, in the position of the main organiser of the event and I have learnt that it is not easy at all to code-switch according to such diverse ways of communicating. I, as a communications student, had failed. If I had a chance to do it again, I would have done things differently.
1) I will consult the correct people.
This is very important because people who know nothing will provide you with the wrong information and lead you onto the wrong path, when approaching the final goal.
2) I will block off noises.
Along the way, different people will have different opinions and the influential ones are the most dangerous people to heed advice from. They will always try to get you on their side even if they don’t know a thing about what they are talking about and provide you with half truths. Always remember that the final decisions lie with yourself and none of your decisions should skew according to anybody’s directions but your own.
3) I will establish my foothold firmly
Work with people cooperatively and seek their opinions, but don’t try to please everyone. If you’re the boss, be the boss, but don’t be too authoritative.
Nevertheless, I am very thankful for all the people who have stuck by me and helped me all the way despite my extreme noob-ness.
Being in the JCRC has taught me so much only through a micro-version of the real world. Thinking about dealing with the real thing just creeps me out. There are just too many different types of people who have different life-experiences which mould them into what they are. I have seen people who are really nice and genuine, people who love to show and tell but never do anything, people who live for critiquing, people who hide in their own shell of superficial thoughts, people who are honestly not very capable but tries very hard… … & you know what? After meeting all these people and working with them, I just try to appreciate the good and disregard the bad. It always baffles me how people can act so differently sometimes and I often wonder what goes on in their minds. Then I figured that life’s just complex the way it is.
Which is why I started to cherish my secondary & JC friends more. I just hope that all these friends of mine don’t forget the sentimental values that we’ll always share. <3
Studying for finals this sem had been difficult because I was nerve-wreckingly distracted and I think I suffered from a short attention span. I spent more time preparing for birthdays (like whut, haha), taking photos (like double whut), and thinking about the lady we worked with for CS2006. (sigh, amanda, sigh)
The modules this semester were pretty meaningful, except for 0900 (Lol, biasness). They made me realise the difference that I can make through my course though I’m still uncertain about what I want to specialise in. Judging from the INFJ personality profile, perhaps journalism? (Go check the Jungian personality quiz! it’s kinda cool) Haha.
I have learnt so much about myself this semester, and how I can better manage my obstacles one step at a time, to reach to the mountain top. I have grown, and I am proud. Well, I guess it’s true that a “smooth sailing sea never makes a skilful sailor”. Right now, I have to shift my focus on my music and strengthening my back, as well as saving up! Can’t wait to catch up with books, films,friends, and exciting things to do. (Y)
Because of certain setbacks, I chose to settle for less in order to manage my disappointments. But that also made me less focused and work without an end in mind. I want to keep improving.
Leading a simple life is not the same as leading an ordinary life.
My hair. hahaha. Back in Sem 1 with Jheong & Sarah. :)
Thank you for staying by me to keep me going through tough times.
When it’s your turn, I hope I can do the same for you too.
All the best errbady!